I often get asked if motherhood is the MOST wonderful thing in the world. I am always torn which sounds awful I know but it's true. Some days are wonderful but some days are absolutely NOT wonderful. Today falls under the latter of the two.
I got up this morning and it seemed like a hopeful day. I got to sleep in (thanks Shan), showered and brushed my teeth all by 10:00 which is a miracle. I had a docs appointment which I wasn't looking forward to for reasons I won't go into. Shan watched Lucca so I didn't have to worry about it but when I got to my midwife's office there was a note on the door stating she was in a birth and sorry for the inconvenience. At first it I was totally annoyed becuase I had showered and brushed my teeth all before 10 just to be ready but then I realized no one expected me home for an hour. The glee was so overwhelming it took about 5 minutes to even realize what to do with my time.
I decided to run a couple Christmas errands which was great. I had completely forgotten what ease it used to be to drive in silence to a store, get out all by myself, take as long as I wanted and get back in my car to the next store in silence. Awesome!
I got home, fed Lucca and off we went for more Christmas shopping....stressful style. Lucca screamed the entire way to go get Lulu and once there her phone wasn't working so we looped around and around her block while I obsessively called over and over while Lucca continued down meltdown road. Finally I stopped the car to get him out and settle him down. Finally I got in touch with Hilda and she met us downstairs right as Lucca was settling down. There was hope, now Hilda could sit back with him so he wouldn't scream. We get him back in the car seat and downtown we go....oh wait my car won't start. The battery is dead. Oh, what, we're in a tow zone at 3:00pm. Oh, what, my license is expired. Oh, what I don't have jumper cables and neither does anyone else in Seattle. Oh, what it's below freezing outside and snow is expected any minuted. Awesome! So, I held Lucca while Hilda got out of the car and asked every passing patron if they had jumper cables. After about 7 people finally this nice guy who barely spoke English could help us. Neither of us could find my battery so we had to get the owners manual out and two of his friends had to help but we finally got it started. Off we went with Lucca screaming once again all the way home with no Christmas shopping to be had. Needless to say, I was in tears the whole way home. Caring for an infant can be very isolating at times, but nothing is more isolating than knowing your car no longer works...argh!
Well, we just got Lucca down to bed so I'm going out to do my shopping now...alone...in the quiteness of my own thoughts. I can't wait!!!
Merry Christmas!
Heather
3 comments:
Oh my Hell, are you serious?! You poor poor thing. That is MISERABLE!! I would be bawling too. Luckily you had Hilda there to help. Can you imagine if you were all alone? I have just completely given up on shopping with Tate... completely. It's quite sad. I have about a 15 min. limit. If it's going to take longer than that I don't take her. End of story. I always end up leaving mad and feeling sorry for myself, and she ends up mad too. It's just not worth it. You need to come in town and have a WHOLE date night to yourself- my and Wy will watch Lucca and you can Shan can go on a Christmas date.
ps- I just put 2 and 2 together and realized this is probably what you were talking about in your message... " I have to tell you about my day"
wow- I had a lot of typo's in that first comment. Sorry about that.
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